Ryan vs. Alex

Ryan texted me the other day. He's still perfect. I hate that he had to leave.
Alex on the other hand is the guy who just transferred into my Chinese class... and is amazing. He's not perfect. He isn't really that cute, from my perspective. However, he has the same sense of humor as me and I love being around him. We both can't decide if we like each other. We both are trying to get the other person to. It's kinda ridiculous actually. I have Chinese on Wednesday! We'll see how that goes :-)

In art, Amazing is causing so much drama. Yes, that's her name. And she treats JT (the guy who broke up with Paige for her) like crap. And she's cheating with JT's best friend. So during the 99 minutes I have of art, I get to hear about it.

I think Molly is starting to drink.

Kim still isn't talking to me. I miss her. I hope that she misses me enough to at least have a regular conversation with me, so that Karson and Aly aren't stuck between us. I love Kimmy!!

Church is changing again. There is no room that youth can go to. Which we don't even totally need one right now, but Joe gave our room to Club 56 and the REC room which is pretty much Net overflow and church's rejected stuff. It makes me feel rejected and like I don't have a place in my church to identify with anymore.

Daniel moved into DU today. College is perfect for how I want to live, and I can't wait for my 4 years of high school to be done!! Maybe in college the school will be big enough to avoid dramatic people. Even though I love them.

I stopped reading Picture Perfect because it's a romance novel (aka "girl porn") and I wish I could keep reading because it was an amazing book!! But I'm not because God doesn't want me to and I figure, I screw up so much already I might as well TRY to do something right.

Next Tuesday we're going to see John!!!!!! Hopefully he'll be able to play soccer, but he's been getting hurt so there's no way to know for sure.
I miss him.

I talked to Erin and she's going to try to earn my trust back. She knows she hurt me. I went and was going to calmly talk to her about how I can't decide if I should let her back in to lead me or not and I ended up bawling about how much I missed her but she'd hurt me so much that I was so lost... and I cried into her shoulder and she hugged me and she's going to work for my trust. I am so relieved.

I didn't get a part in the play. I wasn't expecting one but it still sucked.
Karson didn't get one either and she deserved it.

Dance is gonna be legit!! I can't wait to find out what the song is!!!!!!!! Amanda has known all summer but they won't tell until the actual dance season starts.

Life will be good now or later. It's not all these circumstances that'll make life better, they just make it easier of harder to accept.