Monday, September 27, 2010
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Looooooong Day
SO glad you're ungrounded Aly!!
Today started out wrong. First period went wrong. I got called down to the dean's again. Mr. K is pretty legit, but still I don't like getting called to the dean's. I feel like I did something wrong even though I didn't really. Second period went wrong. I printed out the wrong stuff and felt stupid. And almost fell asleep. Third period went just as I expected: wrong. Amazing is so flipping full of herself and she lies constantly. And I hear 99 minutes of it. Oh, the joys! Fourth period was (as always) horrible. So I guess it wasn't wrong because I was kinda expecting. it.
Band was okay. I worked my ass off and now I'm sore. CiCi and I were wearing the same thing. Same shirt, blue skinny jeans, a red hoodie. Even our bracelets are the exact same. CiCi is cool, BUT he's a guy. Is that bad?? I can't decide.
Oh and he was wearing the Toms I desperately want!!! But idk if I'll get them now...
I NEED A HAIRCUT!!!!!!!!!!! I've worn my hair in a pony tail for 5 days and I hate how it looks up and down. Tomorrow or Thursday I'm getting it cut. I can barely wait. Hopefully tomorrow will be easier/better. I have a ton of B Day hw to do though. This is me putting it off because I'm so bored and frustrated with life. But I move on.
Today started out wrong. First period went wrong. I got called down to the dean's again. Mr. K is pretty legit, but still I don't like getting called to the dean's. I feel like I did something wrong even though I didn't really. Second period went wrong. I printed out the wrong stuff and felt stupid. And almost fell asleep. Third period went just as I expected: wrong. Amazing is so flipping full of herself and she lies constantly. And I hear 99 minutes of it. Oh, the joys! Fourth period was (as always) horrible. So I guess it wasn't wrong because I was kinda expecting. it.
Band was okay. I worked my ass off and now I'm sore. CiCi and I were wearing the same thing. Same shirt, blue skinny jeans, a red hoodie. Even our bracelets are the exact same. CiCi is cool, BUT he's a guy. Is that bad?? I can't decide.
Oh and he was wearing the Toms I desperately want!!! But idk if I'll get them now...
I NEED A HAIRCUT!!!!!!!!!!! I've worn my hair in a pony tail for 5 days and I hate how it looks up and down. Tomorrow or Thursday I'm getting it cut. I can barely wait. Hopefully tomorrow will be easier/better. I have a ton of B Day hw to do though. This is me putting it off because I'm so bored and frustrated with life. But I move on.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Ryan vs. Alex
Ryan texted me the other day. He's still perfect. I hate that he had to leave.
Alex on the other hand is the guy who just transferred into my Chinese class... and is amazing. He's not perfect. He isn't really that cute, from my perspective. However, he has the same sense of humor as me and I love being around him. We both can't decide if we like each other. We both are trying to get the other person to. It's kinda ridiculous actually. I have Chinese on Wednesday! We'll see how that goes :-)
In art, Amazing is causing so much drama. Yes, that's her name. And she treats JT (the guy who broke up with Paige for her) like crap. And she's cheating with JT's best friend. So during the 99 minutes I have of art, I get to hear about it.
I think Molly is starting to drink.
Kim still isn't talking to me. I miss her. I hope that she misses me enough to at least have a regular conversation with me, so that Karson and Aly aren't stuck between us. I love Kimmy!!
Church is changing again. There is no room that youth can go to. Which we don't even totally need one right now, but Joe gave our room to Club 56 and the REC room which is pretty much Net overflow and church's rejected stuff. It makes me feel rejected and like I don't have a place in my church to identify with anymore.
Daniel moved into DU today. College is perfect for how I want to live, and I can't wait for my 4 years of high school to be done!! Maybe in college the school will be big enough to avoid dramatic people. Even though I love them.
I stopped reading Picture Perfect because it's a romance novel (aka "girl porn") and I wish I could keep reading because it was an amazing book!! But I'm not because God doesn't want me to and I figure, I screw up so much already I might as well TRY to do something right.
Next Tuesday we're going to see John!!!!!! Hopefully he'll be able to play soccer, but he's been getting hurt so there's no way to know for sure.
I miss him.
I talked to Erin and she's going to try to earn my trust back. She knows she hurt me. I went and was going to calmly talk to her about how I can't decide if I should let her back in to lead me or not and I ended up bawling about how much I missed her but she'd hurt me so much that I was so lost... and I cried into her shoulder and she hugged me and she's going to work for my trust. I am so relieved.
I didn't get a part in the play. I wasn't expecting one but it still sucked.
Karson didn't get one either and she deserved it.
Dance is gonna be legit!! I can't wait to find out what the song is!!!!!!!! Amanda has known all summer but they won't tell until the actual dance season starts.
Life will be good now or later. It's not all these circumstances that'll make life better, they just make it easier of harder to accept.
Alex on the other hand is the guy who just transferred into my Chinese class... and is amazing. He's not perfect. He isn't really that cute, from my perspective. However, he has the same sense of humor as me and I love being around him. We both can't decide if we like each other. We both are trying to get the other person to. It's kinda ridiculous actually. I have Chinese on Wednesday! We'll see how that goes :-)
In art, Amazing is causing so much drama. Yes, that's her name. And she treats JT (the guy who broke up with Paige for her) like crap. And she's cheating with JT's best friend. So during the 99 minutes I have of art, I get to hear about it.
I think Molly is starting to drink.
Kim still isn't talking to me. I miss her. I hope that she misses me enough to at least have a regular conversation with me, so that Karson and Aly aren't stuck between us. I love Kimmy!!
Church is changing again. There is no room that youth can go to. Which we don't even totally need one right now, but Joe gave our room to Club 56 and the REC room which is pretty much Net overflow and church's rejected stuff. It makes me feel rejected and like I don't have a place in my church to identify with anymore.
Daniel moved into DU today. College is perfect for how I want to live, and I can't wait for my 4 years of high school to be done!! Maybe in college the school will be big enough to avoid dramatic people. Even though I love them.
I stopped reading Picture Perfect because it's a romance novel (aka "girl porn") and I wish I could keep reading because it was an amazing book!! But I'm not because God doesn't want me to and I figure, I screw up so much already I might as well TRY to do something right.
Next Tuesday we're going to see John!!!!!! Hopefully he'll be able to play soccer, but he's been getting hurt so there's no way to know for sure.
I miss him.
I talked to Erin and she's going to try to earn my trust back. She knows she hurt me. I went and was going to calmly talk to her about how I can't decide if I should let her back in to lead me or not and I ended up bawling about how much I missed her but she'd hurt me so much that I was so lost... and I cried into her shoulder and she hugged me and she's going to work for my trust. I am so relieved.
I didn't get a part in the play. I wasn't expecting one but it still sucked.
Karson didn't get one either and she deserved it.
Dance is gonna be legit!! I can't wait to find out what the song is!!!!!!!! Amanda has known all summer but they won't tell until the actual dance season starts.
Life will be good now or later. It's not all these circumstances that'll make life better, they just make it easier of harder to accept.
The Truth
This was way too complicated to text and I am too cowardly to call you, so here's the truth about the Facebook.
The original email and facebook were NOT made by me. Rather, I guessed the password (it was easy once I knew the email) and I decided to keep the page going. I wasn't the only one who used it though. Then, you found out. You got grounded and I felt bad. So I figured out who the other person was, and we decided to delete the account. You were still grounded though. So I emailed the person and convinced them to email your mom. This was the bigger email argument. I made the 1st one a bigger deal than it sounded.
I ended up making the email to email your mom, and at my house anonymous person and I drafted and emailed your mom. So I didn't completely write it; it sounded like me because I helped.
Now you're going way over the top to find out that the email will be traced to me. And you'll either be pissed now after reading this or then, once you don't even care what I have to say.
I really don't want to be dramatic about it, so if you're too mad to still be my friend so be it, and no arguing. If not, I'll work to earn your trust back.
You can't imagine how really really sorry I am, for everything. And what your parents said about me being a bad friend, I tried not to be and I should have told you the truth earlier and been a better friend.
The anonymous person still gets to be anonymous, but there's the truth. Anything from whatever else I told you either fits with that or I lied.
PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and text my secondary # when you can
The original email and facebook were NOT made by me. Rather, I guessed the password (it was easy once I knew the email) and I decided to keep the page going. I wasn't the only one who used it though. Then, you found out. You got grounded and I felt bad. So I figured out who the other person was, and we decided to delete the account. You were still grounded though. So I emailed the person and convinced them to email your mom. This was the bigger email argument. I made the 1st one a bigger deal than it sounded.
I ended up making the email to email your mom, and at my house anonymous person and I drafted and emailed your mom. So I didn't completely write it; it sounded like me because I helped.
Now you're going way over the top to find out that the email will be traced to me. And you'll either be pissed now after reading this or then, once you don't even care what I have to say.
I really don't want to be dramatic about it, so if you're too mad to still be my friend so be it, and no arguing. If not, I'll work to earn your trust back.
You can't imagine how really really sorry I am, for everything. And what your parents said about me being a bad friend, I tried not to be and I should have told you the truth earlier and been a better friend.
The anonymous person still gets to be anonymous, but there's the truth. Anything from whatever else I told you either fits with that or I lied.
PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and text my secondary # when you can
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Priorities
I know my priorities are screwed. I'll be okay and if I'm not than I'll find something to fall back on and still be a similar person to who I am now.
Don't Judge!!
Don't Judge!!
School
School is pointless. When am I EVER going to need to know how to write a dialectic journal?! And what world that I'll go into is going to require pre-calc and trig on the same day????????? I have lunch with no one.
I hate that Eric has my blog address enough that I may start a new blog and give this one up. Bleh.
Apparently Julia met a guy at WaterWorld today and I looked through like 300 people on facebook for her, looking for him. Jordan M something... He lives in Boulder and he has light brown hair and bright blue eyes and is going into high school. I don't think she's gonna find him. But there's always that fate crap they teach you to believe in.
Official Favorite Song: Don't Stop Believin'!!
I hate that Eric has my blog address enough that I may start a new blog and give this one up. Bleh.
Apparently Julia met a guy at WaterWorld today and I looked through like 300 people on facebook for her, looking for him. Jordan M something... He lives in Boulder and he has light brown hair and bright blue eyes and is going into high school. I don't think she's gonna find him. But there's always that fate crap they teach you to believe in.
Official Favorite Song: Don't Stop Believin'!!
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Just For Aly
Eric if you're reading this please stop.
Dear Aly,
You won't text or call me back... I was totally pissed at you for a tonna stuff and texted you last night a like 1am. You didn't respond all day. Than at like 11 I tried to ask if you got my messages and you didn't respond. And than I find out that you tell Eric Grahm more than you tell me because you talk to him which is more than I can say for us. So now instead of being pissed I'm hurt and upset. You have a life and I'm listening to you and avoiding DJ and I miss hanging out with you!! Please text or call or blog or get a facebook. Please Aly, respond. Obviously in semi-desperate and I need someone to talk to!! Please
From, Your Friend?? Caley
Dear Aly,
You won't text or call me back... I was totally pissed at you for a tonna stuff and texted you last night a like 1am. You didn't respond all day. Than at like 11 I tried to ask if you got my messages and you didn't respond. And than I find out that you tell Eric Grahm more than you tell me because you talk to him which is more than I can say for us. So now instead of being pissed I'm hurt and upset. You have a life and I'm listening to you and avoiding DJ and I miss hanging out with you!! Please text or call or blog or get a facebook. Please Aly, respond. Obviously in semi-desperate and I need someone to talk to!! Please
From, Your Friend?? Caley
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